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Thursday, February 17, 2005

Worries

T______T I SUUUUCK. I Suck totally and absolutely.
there're things in my character I wish I had the power to change but can't seem to spend any energy doing...

there's things around me i wish could be transformed into something more... beautiful.... not what it is now...

it's so... so sad......... it's as if everything around me is disappointed with what i've become.... and i know.... i know i am disappointed in myself... that all my life i've been worrying and chasing after things that do not matter... things that somehow still manage to take a big chunk of time out of my life.........

how could i.... how dare i........ >__< disappointed everyone by being.... so selfish with my time....

God where do we go from here? issit true what he said? if u can't change to something gd... u just have to... live with it?

he's not the same as i remembered before.... he's so tired, Lord... He seems so.... grounded............. even the way he prays seems.... different.... did you notice? you must have right, Lord? The way we pray at the dinner table....it'd different...

Help, Lord.... please help...